1/18/11
原来，是我太无知
原来，电视剧里 因心痛而走走停停，不是被夸张
原来， 悔恨而留下的泪水，不是传说
原来，真正的爱情，不是谎话
原来，我得不到的啊
原来，你从来不正视我
原来，你没有关心过我
原来，你不懂我
原来，我的心会痛
原来，我熟悉的你的味道，是虚假
原来，我珍惜的你的笑容，是幌子
原来，我喜爱的你，是。。。
什么呢？
我会在你耳畔轻轻呢喃
但你会听吗？
Sunday, February 16, 2014
Saturday, February 15, 2014
My Valentine's Day Japanese Music Playlist Ver.2014
Even though this is one day after Valentine's day..it doesn't really matter...
as one may observe...I only wrote songs from 2 bands..sorry that I'm so biased.
But then again, this is MY recommendation list.
So this is it~
1) [OOR] The same as…
Acoustic: http://vimeo.com/62471620
Lyrics : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fao7cx8ZeA4
2) [OOR] Wherever you are
Live: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aOjpBKNlkzU
3) [OOR] Pierce
Lyrics: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rhN0aA8RGZo
4) [OOR] Et cetera
Live: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4tunzadgKUk
5) [PTP x Taka] Voice
Lyrics: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CnKyZ_Qbnu0
6) [OOR] Notes n’ words
Lyrics : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=firQ0JIIwhI
7) [OOR] 恋ノアイボウ心ノクピド
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kVRlv4p5ons
8) [UW] 君の好きなうた
Live: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KBeFJLixcMc
9) [UW] 優しさの雫
Cant find lyrics.. :http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z3yN8xw3CMk
10) [UW] 体温&ai ta 心
Live with Chinese subs?loll: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vInnHp5asTw
11) [UW]Mondo piece
Live: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2PjKbKVAQfo
12) [OOR] All mine (the lyrics are so sweet ..)
Lyrics: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KtCzM8FVWV8
Live: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0N2vrTzg9vw
13) [OOR]A new one for all all for the new one (I don't really like the melody but..lyrics are good)
Lyrics: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=re7OHfnpGTw
14) [OOR] my sweet baby
Lyrics: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e6FkFzS2yjA
[UW] クオリア
Japanese lyrics: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rB91IDVUebI
15) [UW] シークレット
I cannot find this song on youtube…sorry..!!
16)[UW] 恋いしくて (EVEN IF YOU IGNORE OTHER SONGS..YOU MUST LISTEN TO THIS ONE!! You may not like it but one of my all time favorite uverworld songs..)
Wait. I cannot find this song on youtube either..
Found it on a Japanese web site..: http://musicpvmw.blog86.fc2.com/blog-entry-55.html
as one may observe...I only wrote songs from 2 bands..sorry that I'm so biased.
But then again, this is MY recommendation list.
So this is it~
1) [OOR] The same as…
Acoustic: http://vimeo.com/62471620
Lyrics : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fao7cx8ZeA4
2) [OOR] Wherever you are
Live: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aOjpBKNlkzU
3) [OOR] Pierce
Lyrics: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rhN0aA8RGZo
4) [OOR] Et cetera
Live: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4tunzadgKUk
5) [PTP x Taka] Voice
Lyrics: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CnKyZ_Qbnu0
6) [OOR] Notes n’ words
Lyrics : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=firQ0JIIwhI
7) [OOR] 恋ノアイボウ心ノクピド
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kVRlv4p5ons
8) [UW] 君の好きなうた
Live: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KBeFJLixcMc
9) [UW] 優しさの雫
Cant find lyrics.. :http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z3yN8xw3CMk
10) [UW] 体温&ai ta 心
Live with Chinese subs?loll: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vInnHp5asTw
11) [UW]Mondo piece
Live: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2PjKbKVAQfo
12) [OOR] All mine (the lyrics are so sweet ..)
Lyrics: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KtCzM8FVWV8
Live: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0N2vrTzg9vw
13) [OOR]A new one for all all for the new one (I don't really like the melody but..lyrics are good)
Lyrics: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=re7OHfnpGTw
14) [OOR] my sweet baby
Lyrics: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e6FkFzS2yjA
[UW] クオリア
Japanese lyrics: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rB91IDVUebI
15) [UW] シークレット
I cannot find this song on youtube…sorry..!!
16)[UW] 恋いしくて (EVEN IF YOU IGNORE OTHER SONGS..YOU MUST LISTEN TO THIS ONE!! You may not like it but one of my all time favorite uverworld songs..)
Wait. I cannot find this song on youtube either..
Found it on a Japanese web site..: http://musicpvmw.blog86.fc2.com/blog-entry-55.html
Desires (laughter)
3/4/12
I am sure that everybody has desires in their lives, whether it is getting a new job, getting an “A” in their class, or even finding a boyfriend or girlfriend. Not many people like to admit things that they desperately need or want, but I do. I have tons of things that I want. I want to study like a genius; I want to draw like an artist; I want to sing like a star, but mostly I just want to feel loved.
When I carefully observe him from behind, I want him to look back; when I wave to him in the hallway, I want him to simply say “Hi”; when I talk to him during school, I want him to listen and feel my heart. I want his smile to be mine; I want his voice to be mine, I want his eyes to be mine. Sometimes I feel like I’m not right, a person should not have this many desires in life. But who said I have to be right?
I am sure that everybody has desires in their lives, whether it is getting a new job, getting an “A” in their class, or even finding a boyfriend or girlfriend. Not many people like to admit things that they desperately need or want, but I do. I have tons of things that I want. I want to study like a genius; I want to draw like an artist; I want to sing like a star, but mostly I just want to feel loved.
When I carefully observe him from behind, I want him to look back; when I wave to him in the hallway, I want him to simply say “Hi”; when I talk to him during school, I want him to listen and feel my heart. I want his smile to be mine; I want his voice to be mine, I want his eyes to be mine. Sometimes I feel like I’m not right, a person should not have this many desires in life. But who said I have to be right?
To You, To Tomorrow
4/11/2013
To You, To Tomorrow
What is love I didn’t really understood,
Until I met you I was still a child.
Your strong hands helped me do things I never could,
My love is deep but appears to be mild.
The heart of mine flutters but remains shy,
Your eyes sometimes like darkness in the night;
Feels deep and wise far away in the sky;
The windows of your heart still shine so bright,
The light you gave me I cannot repay.
Compare your simile to Heaven and Earth,
Even spring flowers turn jealous and grey.
Hills of gold would never equal your worth;
Your kindness will be my most precious gift,
Till the ocean run dry my love won’t drift.
To You, To Tomorrow
What is love I didn’t really understood,
Until I met you I was still a child.
Your strong hands helped me do things I never could,
My love is deep but appears to be mild.
The heart of mine flutters but remains shy,
Your eyes sometimes like darkness in the night;
Feels deep and wise far away in the sky;
The windows of your heart still shine so bright,
The light you gave me I cannot repay.
Compare your simile to Heaven and Earth,
Even spring flowers turn jealous and grey.
Hills of gold would never equal your worth;
Your kindness will be my most precious gift,
Till the ocean run dry my love won’t drift.
Holocaust Acrostic poem-desperation
Death and horror on the streets
Everyone let’s scream and hide
Shouting, wailing, women crying
Pain Spreading through our hearts
Evicted, hurt, hopeless child
“Run away, far away”, their voices ring
A sound of gunshot resonated in the air
Taste of blood permeates through our mouths
I see no light in the darkness
On my cheek I feel a tear
No hope, no life, no tomorrow
Everyone let’s scream and hide
Shouting, wailing, women crying
Pain Spreading through our hearts
Evicted, hurt, hopeless child
“Run away, far away”, their voices ring
A sound of gunshot resonated in the air
Taste of blood permeates through our mouths
I see no light in the darkness
On my cheek I feel a tear
No hope, no life, no tomorrow
他变了
12/23/13
他变了
他的眼神
不再像新春翠绿的嫩叶那样清新
他的手掌
不再像被窝那般温柔
他的一举一动
不再像孩子那般稚嫩
他
油嘴滑舌
恭维的微笑着
滑稽得像个不知天高地厚的老鼠
他
轻蔑地瞟了我
不
不如说他的眼光只是没有任何感情的扫过我
我感到十分欣慰
那些人
不相信我已不再惦念
他们错了
我怎会留念一个我从没认识的人
他变了
他的眼神
不再像新春翠绿的嫩叶那样清新
他的手掌
不再像被窝那般温柔
他的一举一动
不再像孩子那般稚嫩
他
油嘴滑舌
恭维的微笑着
滑稽得像个不知天高地厚的老鼠
他
轻蔑地瞟了我
不
不如说他的眼光只是没有任何感情的扫过我
我感到十分欣慰
那些人
不相信我已不再惦念
他们错了
我怎会留念一个我从没认识的人
To be who I am
9/7/11
Dreams are like clouds, when you see them you will try to touch them, but when you actually touch them, they just simply fade into nothingness. I have never really thought about who I really was, you see, when you are still alive there is just no point in having a representation of yourself. But now, I rethought the question, and I found out that it is very important to find our true identity. I thought maybe that was why God sent us on Earth, you know, to complete the task of finding the reason. Joyce Mayer once said, “A #2 pencil and a dream can take you anywhere.”, and I fully believe in this. And my dream tells me who I am. I have such a myriad number of dreams, and no matter how small they may be, they all are very important to me. And my biggest dream is to be a manga artist. Manga is Japanese comic books. My dreams are all the reasons why I am living here and now. They give me the strength to survive school; they give me hope whenever life is hard; and most importantly, they let me found the true desire of my life.
My dreams are really helping me to be excited for school. Since I really did not have many friends, honestly, I questioned why I am alive. Except for my family, no one loves me. And even my family, they only love me because we are blood related. I can go to school and do not need to say a word in a whole day. I know, at first, it was because I never had the nerve to speak in English, since I came here two years ago, so I was really afraid that I would get the grammar or pronunciations wrong. But now that I have that I have confidence, I might have already lost my chances, and in other people’s minds I was already in the “the boring/quiet type of person” category. And now that I have some “friends”, I feel like I am just acting a person that is definitely not me. I always thought that at the end, I will die quietly, without people noticing. But then I found manga, and the simple desire of reading it became dreams. I had lots of dreams, and it makes me want to live as long as possible to achieve it. At first, my dreams were small, just to make me have hopes for a day, like: I can read manga after I survive school, somehow that actually made me excited to go to school. But then my dreams start to build up like a snow ball rolling on the ground, and finally one day, I decided that, drawing is what I am meant to do. So after I survive high school, my dream shall send me to Japan and draw mangas for my favorite manga magazine, Shonen Jump. Just as Joyce Mayer said, literally, a number two pencil is taking me closer to my dreams.
Dreams are the only ones to rely on when life is not treating you well. This week, my family discovered that my grandma has lung cancer, and she is at the end of her life. Yes, she is older than all the average people that dies, but that does not mean that we are prepared. Before, I only visit her twice a year, so I did not even learn what exactly is my grandma’s personality like, and now that she does not have much time I really want to get to know her better. It was miserable to think that someone who was perfectly alive just vanishes into thin air. But sadly, this is not the most heart breaking part of this, my mom is. She was the foundation of our family, since I do not live with my dad. So if she breaks, our whole family is going to fall apart. At the first day, she was crying the whole day. She wound not cry in front of me or my sister, but we all can hear her sobbing in her room. I would actually want her to show her true side in front of us, because it feels sadder when she was just trying really hard to smile at us. So my dream right now is to make my mom happier. And it makes me smile no matter what might happen.
My dream made me realize what is it that I really want to do in my life. My biggest dream, to be a manga artist, sounds really stupid to a lot of adults. At first, when I just learned how to draw, my parents encouraged me, and helped me. But when I start to spend more time on drawing than on my homework, things started to change. My grade was still “A”s and “A+”s, but apparently my parents were not satisfied, and it was same to their friends. Every time I say that I want to draw for a living, before they are laughed and did not say much, but then they start saying that I should be more mature and I should choose a more realistic dream, like getting a good score on SAT, or choosing a university that I will want to go. They all said that drawing can just be a hobby; it does not have to be professional. And I should have a backup plan when I fail. But if I do not try and always do have another easier way out, I will never achieve my dream. I feel like Got made me and sent me here was because I should draw to make other’s lives happier, and give them a break from all the stress in life.
My dream is my life. Because of my dreams I am still living, and I want to live longer to do whatever it takes to achieve them. They are the fuel to make me go to school, no matter how lonely I am; they are the light and hope that directs me out of misery; they are the true identity of me. Do you want to be the kind of robot all our parents want? Do you want to be as same as others living a super ordinary life? Do you want to just live the life your parents designed for you the moment you were born? If the answer is no, find your dream, and most importantly, no matter how hard it is, achieve it!
Dreams are like clouds, when you see them you will try to touch them, but when you actually touch them, they just simply fade into nothingness. I have never really thought about who I really was, you see, when you are still alive there is just no point in having a representation of yourself. But now, I rethought the question, and I found out that it is very important to find our true identity. I thought maybe that was why God sent us on Earth, you know, to complete the task of finding the reason. Joyce Mayer once said, “A #2 pencil and a dream can take you anywhere.”, and I fully believe in this. And my dream tells me who I am. I have such a myriad number of dreams, and no matter how small they may be, they all are very important to me. And my biggest dream is to be a manga artist. Manga is Japanese comic books. My dreams are all the reasons why I am living here and now. They give me the strength to survive school; they give me hope whenever life is hard; and most importantly, they let me found the true desire of my life.
My dreams are really helping me to be excited for school. Since I really did not have many friends, honestly, I questioned why I am alive. Except for my family, no one loves me. And even my family, they only love me because we are blood related. I can go to school and do not need to say a word in a whole day. I know, at first, it was because I never had the nerve to speak in English, since I came here two years ago, so I was really afraid that I would get the grammar or pronunciations wrong. But now that I have that I have confidence, I might have already lost my chances, and in other people’s minds I was already in the “the boring/quiet type of person” category. And now that I have some “friends”, I feel like I am just acting a person that is definitely not me. I always thought that at the end, I will die quietly, without people noticing. But then I found manga, and the simple desire of reading it became dreams. I had lots of dreams, and it makes me want to live as long as possible to achieve it. At first, my dreams were small, just to make me have hopes for a day, like: I can read manga after I survive school, somehow that actually made me excited to go to school. But then my dreams start to build up like a snow ball rolling on the ground, and finally one day, I decided that, drawing is what I am meant to do. So after I survive high school, my dream shall send me to Japan and draw mangas for my favorite manga magazine, Shonen Jump. Just as Joyce Mayer said, literally, a number two pencil is taking me closer to my dreams.
Dreams are the only ones to rely on when life is not treating you well. This week, my family discovered that my grandma has lung cancer, and she is at the end of her life. Yes, she is older than all the average people that dies, but that does not mean that we are prepared. Before, I only visit her twice a year, so I did not even learn what exactly is my grandma’s personality like, and now that she does not have much time I really want to get to know her better. It was miserable to think that someone who was perfectly alive just vanishes into thin air. But sadly, this is not the most heart breaking part of this, my mom is. She was the foundation of our family, since I do not live with my dad. So if she breaks, our whole family is going to fall apart. At the first day, she was crying the whole day. She wound not cry in front of me or my sister, but we all can hear her sobbing in her room. I would actually want her to show her true side in front of us, because it feels sadder when she was just trying really hard to smile at us. So my dream right now is to make my mom happier. And it makes me smile no matter what might happen.
My dream made me realize what is it that I really want to do in my life. My biggest dream, to be a manga artist, sounds really stupid to a lot of adults. At first, when I just learned how to draw, my parents encouraged me, and helped me. But when I start to spend more time on drawing than on my homework, things started to change. My grade was still “A”s and “A+”s, but apparently my parents were not satisfied, and it was same to their friends. Every time I say that I want to draw for a living, before they are laughed and did not say much, but then they start saying that I should be more mature and I should choose a more realistic dream, like getting a good score on SAT, or choosing a university that I will want to go. They all said that drawing can just be a hobby; it does not have to be professional. And I should have a backup plan when I fail. But if I do not try and always do have another easier way out, I will never achieve my dream. I feel like Got made me and sent me here was because I should draw to make other’s lives happier, and give them a break from all the stress in life.
My dream is my life. Because of my dreams I am still living, and I want to live longer to do whatever it takes to achieve them. They are the fuel to make me go to school, no matter how lonely I am; they are the light and hope that directs me out of misery; they are the true identity of me. Do you want to be the kind of robot all our parents want? Do you want to be as same as others living a super ordinary life? Do you want to just live the life your parents designed for you the moment you were born? If the answer is no, find your dream, and most importantly, no matter how hard it is, achieve it!
Freedom.~
自由真的是好的吗？
如果没有了自由
人也就没有了选择
没有了选择
也能让人少一份困扰
我愿舍去自由
换来更多的时间
来用折了的翅膀
带我去新的天地
我想要活在这个丰富多彩的世界
8/20/11
如果没有了自由
人也就没有了选择
没有了选择
也能让人少一份困扰
我愿舍去自由
换来更多的时间
来用折了的翅膀
带我去新的天地
我想要活在这个丰富多彩的世界
8/20/11
为什么伤心的是看起来总是比快乐的事多？
为什么伤心的是看起来总是比快乐的事多？
如果神真的能够救赎人类，
现在的世界是否会有所改变？
如果人能决定自己的命运，
大家的生活是否会更美好？
我是雨
冲走一切污泥
我是叶
带离浑浊的空气
但是我只是我
带不走任何不洁的东西
连我心中微乎其微的烦恼都无法清除
我想快乐的活着
不顾一切
8/20/11
如果神真的能够救赎人类，
现在的世界是否会有所改变？
如果人能决定自己的命运，
大家的生活是否会更美好？
我是雨
冲走一切污泥
我是叶
带离浑浊的空气
但是我只是我
带不走任何不洁的东西
连我心中微乎其微的烦恼都无法清除
我想快乐的活着
不顾一切
8/20/11
Don't die when I still love you
8/16/11
Everyday
I question what I believe
I wonder
If I still love you
Everything
Has the same end
Disappear, gone, dissolved
Death
But don't die when I still love you
When I still want to be with you
Don't be selfish
And leave a scar in my heart
The fish dies
Leaving a wave in the pond
The bird dies
Leaving a feather on the ground
But what will we leave at the end?
Don't die now
Because I still love you.
Everyday
I question what I believe
I wonder
If I still love you
Everything
Has the same end
Disappear, gone, dissolved
Death
But don't die when I still love you
When I still want to be with you
Don't be selfish
And leave a scar in my heart
The fish dies
Leaving a wave in the pond
The bird dies
Leaving a feather on the ground
But what will we leave at the end?
Don't die now
Because I still love you.
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